gonna kiss and hug that Shadow

For now I'm practicing the right to not be right at all
The right to not eat healthy or biological

I don't call back
I don't reply
leave letters at the door
I even risk a ticket
when I push my luck for more

Life's a box of chocolates and I'm hungry

I dont't care anymore if you understand
I'll eat all the chocolates in my box
no matter how many times you'll tell me I'm not worthy,
not enough to have deserved such joy and pleasure.
It's a bunch of crap you've fed me just a bit too long
It has hurt my heart just a tat too much

Beauties of my life
you are mine and I love you
I am blessed and so much more than I believed

A note for The Man

We are standing up
planting feet
unfolding wings

Man/child, time's up!
Time has come for you to be whole again.
You think darkness is comfortable and safe
but it won't be for much longer
Choose something else
while there is still a choice to be made

By the time you open your eyes
there will be nothing left to look at

A DAY IN THE LIFE OF A GUTSY WOMAN

GODDESS
WARRIOR
WOMAN

One day you'll see something beautiful and you'll want to perfect it

I think it was a movie that this line is from
It was about finding your purpose or calling in life
I just remember thinking

I see Myself

So often I do not understand what I'm doing
I cannot stop myself cause it is the only thing that feels right
but it seems to have so little value and meaning in the eyes of
of who exactly?
I don't really know...
Patriarchy?
the eyes of the ruling father?
Here I sit and dive down again and again
bringing handsfull of mud, garbage and treasures to the surface

Can you see me?

If I would take my time and explain to you what I see, feel and think...

If you would take your time and look me in the eye and I would not look away...

If you would hold my hand, touch my skin, feel my breath and smell my hair..

If I would take you by the hand and walk you through the garden of my life...

tell you all my dreams and all that Im afraid of..

If I would lay with you and show myself naked in the morning light...

If I would take you to the root of me...

Would you see me?

Would you see it all without distortion? without reflection?

2010

the year of the metal tiger is coming up
starting on Valentine's day
looks quite interesting
a lot of power in the house
mmmmm....
let's put it to work

time to move on

Children do not belong to their parents
Wives do not belong to their men
And the earth does not belong to the human race
Let's bless the rule of the fathers and move on to something new
We don't have to argue wrong or right
Everything has it's place and time
But there is no need for us to stand still
I know no woman that doesn't see a different way of being
But so used to having no power, like caged birds we sit and wait
This is no time for waiting
This is the time to spread your wings and jump into the great unknown

wrong or right

wrote a little song the other day
goes like this

Wrong or right, doesn't exist
didn't you know
they made it up a long time ago

Wrong or right, doesn't exist
didn't you know
they made it up a long time ago

Keep the people in control
this is yes and this is no
I will lead
and you will follow

Keep the people in control
this is yes and this is no
I will lead
and you will follow

Sounds quite nice...wish I could let you hear it

I wish

I wish I had an empty space to lay in
A silent space where I could stay in
to find my heartbeat, to find my pulse
The silent rhythm of my voice

don't you just love those moments
when the air just smells sooo good!!

mother daughter
daughter mother
such sensitive skin
suchs complex texture
slowly I take your hands and take a step back
oeff..some space to breath

now go and plant your heart in the world

I plant my life in the world
for my life is my painting
my dance and my song

I'm laying down here in the grass
come and see me if you want to
we'll have some maria and float on the clouds
of all we can imagine
and then some

my heart feels lighter already! :)

anger

it's coming out
what would it be..30 years of swallowed, unfelt anger?
28?...31? how small are we when we give it away?
When we close the door cause we love m so much...

living is my art

my life is my painting
my life is my dance
my life is my song

where to start?

What do I know.....
- I know I'm on my way
- I know I belong to myself
- I know I'll be allright
- I know I'll have to let him go to find him
- I know I'm hurt